Saturday, October 15, 2011
Because of you
I don't blame you, because you gave me a birth, you gave me a life.
After all, you gave me the biggest gift in me.
I don't hate you, no I can't hate you, how can I?
But you gave me an eternal scar, I hope you should have known. I was very young.
I am holding on our happy memories but I can't escape from the creeping dark stories.
I want to fly away and feel free from the past,
but I still hear your misery coated with screaming and yelling.
And I also hear my unspoken whisper.
I hope you should have known. I wish you could have seen my eyes.
I was scared you know, I was trembling from the fear.
I wished I grow up fast, so I could intervene in your both horror.
Now I have grown up. I have my own family, but why? why can't I just ignore?
What have you done to me and my little brother? Creating the fear and terror in children's mind?
But you are still my mother who gave me a birth and be there for me all the time,
you are still my father who raised me strong regardless the hostile environment for you.
Being a mom myself, I can understand a little more.
Life must have been torturing for you both. But does it give you right to torture other lives, too?
I don't know, I really don't know. I'm still figuring out.